Love

22-12-2006

Today I'm tired. Finally vacations and it's a sure thing, give a man some free time and he'll waste it all on thinking on stupid issues or simply he'll try to get loaded for not to think in some issues. I know some lucky bastards that don't even know what the word issue means. Well same old fears, same old questions, everything's changed but everything's the same. You know... same old crap.
And it's strange feeling familiar in a place that you've never were before. This is has been always a difficult season for me, so with the last year's experience (a successful one, I must add) where things went quite smooth, I hope that this year's going to the same path... and I'm going to make it that way.

So I'm tired and had no idea what kind of quote could describe what I'm feeling inside, so I decided to waste some time doing something useful and wish you guys a merry christmas. Nothing elaborated, just simply love. You know... that's how I always felt christmas. A time when you actually have an excuse to NOT to be an ass like the rest of the year. Some people work too hard and make overtime, but the income of an regular ass is terrible (I know, I'm one). So forget the presents, forget the loans, forget the crisis, forget the war. It'll be in the same place the very next day, I assure you, forget all that, just for some couple of days. Grab a person you love and be with her awhile, look for that friend you lost contact with, make somebody feel loved and blessed, believe me that will be how you'll going to feel.A smile, a hug, a kiss. A simply look... anything. The simple things are always the right ones...
It won't make you'll forever happy, it won't make all the shit we put up with in this world go away. No, it's ours to deal with. But we shouldn't forget the basics. Everyhting's changes, everything's the same. Love isn't an impossible thing. Maybe not the love we hunger, the love we need seems a little too well hidden from us, but it's not hard to find. It's not impossible. We let ourselves get blinded for people that see less than us, and forget what we are here for. Don't forget to love, don't let sadness eats you on the inside, it's the most precious thing you'll have: the abillity to love. And when you're down and bitter, you refuse to believe that, you refuse love, you damn love to hell because it's where you feel you are. And you hate the world, you hate happiness, you hate yourself for not beeing able to love or be loved from who you want to. But you can't fall down, you can't stay down, not forever. Life isn't perfect and when all is coming down on you, and all hope is lost, there will be always someone to smile to you, even if it is a complete stranger, love will come from the various places, it'll come. And not only in this season, any time! We're such a dumbfucks that decided to cut it all from 365 days per year to only a few days. There are no rules, there are no limits. Love those you feel that diserve your love and you'll feel blessed. And you'll feel full inside to see that you, yes, you that were crying for not being loved, you too can bring a smile to other people's hearts, you too can bring love. Can bring hope to those who are looking for the same thing, that are fighting for it and every time that they fail and fall down, they fight their way up. Your smile, your voice, your touch can mean everything to another person. We are all waiting for it. One fuckin'g year waiting to see those friends, to hear somebody that went a different way say I miss you. Maybe we're all tired of waiting for some reasons to love, maybe we know so little that we need a reason to do it. If that reason is this season so be it. Some day we'll need no excuse to love, won't feel ashamed, embaressed or afraid to say I love you. Maybe that's all about christmas, a reason to love when we have so few ones along the year. Someday we'll not need it, no exterior reason to love than the ones we have inside. And then the miracle will be not only one time in a year, but everyday. You just got to love.

It's not that hard... is it?

Until then and for all of you..

Merry Christmas