29-9-2005
I ask myself why I'm so hateful
Maybe just part of my nature
People say I'm fucked in my mind
Feels like there's nothing left inside
Walking now on different dirty streets
But the same old feeling still exists
Hate is like a shade that will never leave
Leave me alone I don't need sympathy
What goes around
Comes around
You're going down
Down
Straighthate, Straighthate
Straighthate, Straighthate
Criticize and call me negative
You never face life or reality
Separate myself from the rest
What the fuck do you expect?
What goes around
Comes around
You're going down
Down
Straighthate, Straighthate
Straighthate, Straighthate
Straight fucking hate
What goes around
Comes around
Grow up in the ghettos
Made me real
To deal with my fears
Motherfucker you don't understand
Pain and Hate
Sepultura
Para aquela pessoa especial / To that special person
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Non-Obcession
29-9-2005
"People think it's an obcession. A compulsion. As if there were an irresistible impulse to act. It's never been like that. I chose this life. I know what I'm doing. And on any given day, I could stop doing it. Today, however isn't that day. And tomorrow won't be either"
"People think it's an obcession. A compulsion. As if there were an irresistible impulse to act. It's never been like that. I chose this life. I know what I'm doing. And on any given day, I could stop doing it. Today, however isn't that day. And tomorrow won't be either"
Tears In Heaven
27-9-2005
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.
Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.
Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.
Eric Clapton
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.
Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.
Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.
Eric Clapton
Go Back
25-9-2005
"It's been said you can never go back. That you can't change the things that have happened. Well I'm here to tell you...that's just not true"
you wish...
"It's been said you can never go back. That you can't change the things that have happened. Well I'm here to tell you...that's just not true"
you wish...
The Answer
25-9-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"For every dillema, there is the answer. It is merely a matter of the quest for it
The Wise Man said to me:
"For every dillema, there is the answer. It is merely a matter of the quest for it
In My World
24-9-2005
They're gonna put me in jail?
Man, I'm already in jail
Don't they know that my life
Is just one big cell
I'll bite the hand that feeds me
And I could give a damn if that hand needs me
Why can't you leave me alone?
A lie may fool someone else
But it tells you the truth
You're weak, just another clone
I just want my life
To do whatever I like
Yeah, it's a selfish need
To have no responsibility
So I'll say what I'm gonna say
'Cause I'm going to hell anyway
I'd rather be alone
In my world
I'm not afraid
I am not afraid
Nothing touches me I'm a walking razor blade
Face the face of fear
Face the face of death
Laugh when others tear
Hate when others laugh
In my world it's cold
My defense is like stone
No one gets inside, 'cause
In my world I'm home
In my world I loathe
And you'll always pay a toll
No one gets inside, 'cause
In my world I'm home
An adult at thirteen
My childhood was a dream
A full clout nightmare, a sight unseen
My greatest fear as a kid
One which I always kept hid
Was to come home from school
And find my mother dead
Face the face of fear
Face the face of death
Laugh when others tear
Hate when others laugh
In my world it's cold
My defense is like stone
No one gets inside, 'cause
In my world I'm home
In my world I loathe
And you'll always pay a toll
No one gets inside, 'cause
In my world I'm home
Home!!!
Anthrax
They're gonna put me in jail?
Man, I'm already in jail
Don't they know that my life
Is just one big cell
I'll bite the hand that feeds me
And I could give a damn if that hand needs me
Why can't you leave me alone?
A lie may fool someone else
But it tells you the truth
You're weak, just another clone
I just want my life
To do whatever I like
Yeah, it's a selfish need
To have no responsibility
So I'll say what I'm gonna say
'Cause I'm going to hell anyway
I'd rather be alone
In my world
I'm not afraid
I am not afraid
Nothing touches me I'm a walking razor blade
Face the face of fear
Face the face of death
Laugh when others tear
Hate when others laugh
In my world it's cold
My defense is like stone
No one gets inside, 'cause
In my world I'm home
In my world I loathe
And you'll always pay a toll
No one gets inside, 'cause
In my world I'm home
An adult at thirteen
My childhood was a dream
A full clout nightmare, a sight unseen
My greatest fear as a kid
One which I always kept hid
Was to come home from school
And find my mother dead
Face the face of fear
Face the face of death
Laugh when others tear
Hate when others laugh
In my world it's cold
My defense is like stone
No one gets inside, 'cause
In my world I'm home
In my world I loathe
And you'll always pay a toll
No one gets inside, 'cause
In my world I'm home
Home!!!
Anthrax
Childish
22-9-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"The sounds of arguing youth prove that all war is but a game for children"
The Wise Man said to me:
"The sounds of arguing youth prove that all war is but a game for children"
Self-Esteem
21-9-2005
I wrote her off for the tenth time today
And practiced all the things I would say
But she came over I lost my nerve
I took her back and made her dessert
Oh I know I'm being used
That's okay man cause I like the abuse
Oh I know she's playing with me
That's okay cause I've got no self esteem
We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
All this rejection's got me so low
If she keeps it up I just might tell her so
When she's saying, oh, that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying, oh, that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah-eh-eh
Now I'll relate this little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night she knocks on my door
She's drunk again and looking to score
Oh I know I should say no but
It's kind of hard when she's ready to go
I may be dumb, but I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self esteem
When she's saying, oh, that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying, oh, that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah-eh-eh
The Offspring
I wrote her off for the tenth time today
And practiced all the things I would say
But she came over I lost my nerve
I took her back and made her dessert
Oh I know I'm being used
That's okay man cause I like the abuse
Oh I know she's playing with me
That's okay cause I've got no self esteem
We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
All this rejection's got me so low
If she keeps it up I just might tell her so
When she's saying, oh, that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying, oh, that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah-eh-eh
Now I'll relate this little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night she knocks on my door
She's drunk again and looking to score
Oh I know I should say no but
It's kind of hard when she's ready to go
I may be dumb, but I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self esteem
When she's saying, oh, that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying, oh, that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah-eh-eh
The Offspring
Spread It
16-9-2005
This is a huge request I have for you all and, probably, if it was not that important I would not be sending this. yes, I know, it may seem a desperate action but this truly is a desperate situation. Fot all of those that may have read my journal, you know what I am talking about, for those who haven't then you'll know what this is all about in a few lines, since it is all explained in the nest paragraph. I am asking you to, please, forward this text to all your e-mail contacts and to put it on your journal if you are with this cause. There is no much time left, we have only until the 20th September and something needs to be done. I would also ask you that if you speak any other language besides english or portuguese to, please, translate this to that language, it is easier to get near more people like that.
Thank you so very much in advanced.
*Mehrunnisa
Dear Friends,
Last Tuesday, 13 of September, the Brazilian politicians discussed the new law project about the exploration of the public brazilian forest (the major part is constituted by the Amazonian rainforests). In the meeting there was basically industrial and politic representation. There were no indigenous people invited for the meeting. We investigated this weird fact, because more or less 14% of the brazilian territory belongs to them and the answer was that they were not invited for the discussion our have been informed about this law project! As we all know, the indigenous people are one of the few cultures that opposes to the cruel exploration of the nature so, it means they are a barrier.
The objective of this journal is to divulgate and discuss the law project, to emphasize the importance of the representation of the rainforest people and to pressure the politicians to preserve the forest instead of destroying it. We couldn’t translate the law project to English, and we are looking for possible translations of this text and the law project to other languages so we can reach more people.
About the law project, we feel that is an effort to regulate, in a central law, the disperse regional and municipal laws. But instead of just order the fiscalization and the preservation of the forest, it allows its exploration. The law project has some interesting paragraphs about the creation of sustainable zones in the forest, but if you rent it for 40 years to an industry or to a multinational, what do you imagine that will happen? Even if you have penalizations, what will they solve when you had already destroyed the forest? Also if you live in Brazil you will know that they are no penalties for the riches and for the corrupts. So in a meeting concerning the laws to be applied to the forest, where the goals are the development of the country represented by the commercial, political and industrial sector, with no representation of the forest people, what can we expect? 50% of the forest will be available to explore in this new law! The enrichment of Brazil is one of the reasons presented to support the law project, but who do you think is going to get the profits from this? And there are already multiple examples of the exploration of the forest by big companies! Can you imagine the pollution damages and the tree devastation?
Talking practically, "exploration" is a contract that the employees sign in order to be able to work for those companies, and that’s it. So this attitude of allowing the exploration of the forests because they cannot control the devastation, doesn’t make any sense. It’s like approving the legalization of crimiminality because you can’t control it. How can you believe in a project that was made by the same persons that were responsible for the fiscalization of the forests in the past and didn’t stop the destruction? So Mother Earth will thank you if we preserve it.
Preservation is the only solution.
You can pressure the following persons by sending them emails to:
1) Preserve and fiscalize the rainforests instead of allowing the exploration, has offered by the law project "SUBSTITUTIVO AO PROJETO DE LEI Nº 4.776, DE 2005";
2) Legitimate the participation of the rainforest people in all this process and for their representation inside the parliament.
We are running out of time and this is really something important. Please, if you wish to help, do hurry, we have only until 20th September.
Ministry of the Ambient: marina.silva@mma.gov.br
bazileu.margarido@mma.gov.br
Phone numbers: Call outside of brasil 005561 + 4009-1057/1058/1289
4009-1422/1059
IBAMA: marcus.barros@ibama.gov.br
inah.guatura@ibama.gov.br
ISA: isadf@socioambiental.org
Senadores (responsible politicians): ana.julia@senadora.gov.br
jefperes@senador.gov.br
flexaribeiro@senador.gov.br
leomar@senador.gov.br
P.S.- I will try to translate this law project soon.
This is a huge request I have for you all and, probably, if it was not that important I would not be sending this. yes, I know, it may seem a desperate action but this truly is a desperate situation. Fot all of those that may have read my journal, you know what I am talking about, for those who haven't then you'll know what this is all about in a few lines, since it is all explained in the nest paragraph. I am asking you to, please, forward this text to all your e-mail contacts and to put it on your journal if you are with this cause. There is no much time left, we have only until the 20th September and something needs to be done. I would also ask you that if you speak any other language besides english or portuguese to, please, translate this to that language, it is easier to get near more people like that.
Thank you so very much in advanced.
*Mehrunnisa
Dear Friends,
Last Tuesday, 13 of September, the Brazilian politicians discussed the new law project about the exploration of the public brazilian forest (the major part is constituted by the Amazonian rainforests). In the meeting there was basically industrial and politic representation. There were no indigenous people invited for the meeting. We investigated this weird fact, because more or less 14% of the brazilian territory belongs to them and the answer was that they were not invited for the discussion our have been informed about this law project! As we all know, the indigenous people are one of the few cultures that opposes to the cruel exploration of the nature so, it means they are a barrier.
The objective of this journal is to divulgate and discuss the law project, to emphasize the importance of the representation of the rainforest people and to pressure the politicians to preserve the forest instead of destroying it. We couldn’t translate the law project to English, and we are looking for possible translations of this text and the law project to other languages so we can reach more people.
About the law project, we feel that is an effort to regulate, in a central law, the disperse regional and municipal laws. But instead of just order the fiscalization and the preservation of the forest, it allows its exploration. The law project has some interesting paragraphs about the creation of sustainable zones in the forest, but if you rent it for 40 years to an industry or to a multinational, what do you imagine that will happen? Even if you have penalizations, what will they solve when you had already destroyed the forest? Also if you live in Brazil you will know that they are no penalties for the riches and for the corrupts. So in a meeting concerning the laws to be applied to the forest, where the goals are the development of the country represented by the commercial, political and industrial sector, with no representation of the forest people, what can we expect? 50% of the forest will be available to explore in this new law! The enrichment of Brazil is one of the reasons presented to support the law project, but who do you think is going to get the profits from this? And there are already multiple examples of the exploration of the forest by big companies! Can you imagine the pollution damages and the tree devastation?
Talking practically, "exploration" is a contract that the employees sign in order to be able to work for those companies, and that’s it. So this attitude of allowing the exploration of the forests because they cannot control the devastation, doesn’t make any sense. It’s like approving the legalization of crimiminality because you can’t control it. How can you believe in a project that was made by the same persons that were responsible for the fiscalization of the forests in the past and didn’t stop the destruction? So Mother Earth will thank you if we preserve it.
Preservation is the only solution.
You can pressure the following persons by sending them emails to:
1) Preserve and fiscalize the rainforests instead of allowing the exploration, has offered by the law project "SUBSTITUTIVO AO PROJETO DE LEI Nº 4.776, DE 2005";
2) Legitimate the participation of the rainforest people in all this process and for their representation inside the parliament.
We are running out of time and this is really something important. Please, if you wish to help, do hurry, we have only until 20th September.
Ministry of the Ambient: marina.silva@mma.gov.br
bazileu.margarido@mma.gov.br
Phone numbers: Call outside of brasil 005561 + 4009-1057/1058/1289
4009-1422/1059
IBAMA: marcus.barros@ibama.gov.br
inah.guatura@ibama.gov.br
ISA: isadf@socioambiental.org
Senadores (responsible politicians): ana.julia@senadora.gov.br
jefperes@senador.gov.br
flexaribeiro@senador.gov.br
leomar@senador.gov.br
P.S.- I will try to translate this law project soon.
False Friends
16-9-2005
The Wise Man said to me when I told him about false friends:
"A man never knows how many friends he has until they all decide to hit him at once"
The Wise Man said to me when I told him about false friends:
"A man never knows how many friends he has until they all decide to hit him at once"
Rain
14-9-2005
The Wise Man told me when I was afraid...of life:
"Rain is only a problem if you don't want to get wet"
The Wise Man told me when I was afraid...of life:
"Rain is only a problem if you don't want to get wet"
Melancholy Blues
13-9-2005
Another party's over, another cold sober
My baby left me for somebody new
I don't wanna talk about it
Want to forget about it
Wanna be intoxicated with that special brew
So come an get me... let me
Get in that sinking feeling
That says my heart is an all time low
So... don't expect me
to behave perfectly, and wear that sunny smile
My guess is I'm in for a cloudy and overcast
Don't try and stop me
'Cos I'm heading for that stormy weather soon
I'm causing a mild sensation, with this new occupation
I'm permanently glued, to this extraordinary mood
So now moveover, and let me take over
With my, melancholy blues
I'm cuasing a mild sensation
With this new occupation
I'm in the news, just getting used to this new exposure
And meet my... Melancholy blues
Another party's over, another cold sober
My baby left me for somebody new
I don't wanna talk about it
Want to forget about it
Wanna be intoxicated with that special brew
So come an get me... let me
Get in that sinking feeling
That says my heart is an all time low
So... don't expect me
to behave perfectly, and wear that sunny smile
My guess is I'm in for a cloudy and overcast
Don't try and stop me
'Cos I'm heading for that stormy weather soon
I'm causing a mild sensation, with this new occupation
I'm permanently glued, to this extraordinary mood
So now moveover, and let me take over
With my, melancholy blues
I'm cuasing a mild sensation
With this new occupation
I'm in the news, just getting used to this new exposure
And meet my... Melancholy blues
Shedding Skin
12-9-2005
"-Like a serpent.
-I found you. I found you and now it's done. I don't have to be this way anymore.
-And that's a good thing no? An artist shouldn't repeat herself. You risk alienating your audience. Who wants to see the same thing everytime? You must grow change. Be unpredictable. Unexpected. Unknowable. The serpent sheds its skin and its reborn. And that's a good thing no?"
"-Like a serpent.
-I found you. I found you and now it's done. I don't have to be this way anymore.
-And that's a good thing no? An artist shouldn't repeat herself. You risk alienating your audience. Who wants to see the same thing everytime? You must grow change. Be unpredictable. Unexpected. Unknowable. The serpent sheds its skin and its reborn. And that's a good thing no?"
Gather Around People
10-9-2005
The Wise Man told to me when I was look for some guidance:
"Free advice is always the best value"
The Wise Man told to me when I was look for some guidance:
"Free advice is always the best value"
Dead Child
10-9-2005
"I can think of no greater fear...no darker despair than to see your child dead before you."
"I can think of no greater fear...no darker despair than to see your child dead before you."
Mother
9-9-2005
Mother do you think they'll drop the bomb?
Mother do you think they'll like the song ?
Mother do you think they'll try to break my balls ?
Ooooh aah, Mother should I build a wall ?
Mother should I run for president ?
Mother should I trust the government ?
Mother will they put me in the firing line ?
Ooooh aah, is it it just a waste of time?
Hush now baby don't you cry
Mama's gonna make all of your
Nightmares come true
Mama's gonna put all of her fears into you
Mama's gonna keep you right here
Under her wing
she won't let you fly but she might let you sing
Mama will keep baby cosy and warm
Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe
Of course Mama's gonna help build the wall
Mother do think she's good enough for me ?
Mother do think she's dangerous to me ?
Mother will she tear your little boy apart ?
Oooh aah, mother will she break my heart ?
Hush now baby, baby don't you cry
Mama's gonna check out all your girl friends for you
Mama won't let anyone dirty get through
Mama's gonna wait up till you come in
Mama will always find out where
You've been
Mamma's gonna keep baby healthy and clean
Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe
You'll always be a baby to me
Mother, did it need to be so high...?
Pink Floyd
Mother do you think they'll drop the bomb?
Mother do you think they'll like the song ?
Mother do you think they'll try to break my balls ?
Ooooh aah, Mother should I build a wall ?
Mother should I run for president ?
Mother should I trust the government ?
Mother will they put me in the firing line ?
Ooooh aah, is it it just a waste of time?
Hush now baby don't you cry
Mama's gonna make all of your
Nightmares come true
Mama's gonna put all of her fears into you
Mama's gonna keep you right here
Under her wing
she won't let you fly but she might let you sing
Mama will keep baby cosy and warm
Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe
Of course Mama's gonna help build the wall
Mother do think she's good enough for me ?
Mother do think she's dangerous to me ?
Mother will she tear your little boy apart ?
Oooh aah, mother will she break my heart ?
Hush now baby, baby don't you cry
Mama's gonna check out all your girl friends for you
Mama won't let anyone dirty get through
Mama's gonna wait up till you come in
Mama will always find out where
You've been
Mamma's gonna keep baby healthy and clean
Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe
You'll always be a baby to me
Mother, did it need to be so high...?
Pink Floyd
Inner Ghosts
6-8-2005
One more trip, this time to another Natural Park, in Gerês. This time I'm going to Gaia and it's going to be like walking in some kind of purgatory. Schizms apart, the Wise Man said to me:
"You have to face your inner foes to be the master of your own kingdom"
One more trip, this time to another Natural Park, in Gerês. This time I'm going to Gaia and it's going to be like walking in some kind of purgatory. Schizms apart, the Wise Man said to me:
"You have to face your inner foes to be the master of your own kingdom"
Save Her
5-9-2005
"-Wake up Elizabeth.
-Dad?
-You have to wake up honey
-I don't want to. Can't I stay with you?
-No
-Please dad. I... miss you so much.
-It's not your time... you had a little girl to save.
-Let somebody else save her. I don't care anymore.
-No, Elizabeth. Not her.
-Who? Me?! Dad, the picture...
-You killed us, Elizabeth but my baby girl is still alive. Save her. Embrace her. Don't kill her. Don't kill her.."
"-Wake up Elizabeth.
-Dad?
-You have to wake up honey
-I don't want to. Can't I stay with you?
-No
-Please dad. I... miss you so much.
-It's not your time... you had a little girl to save.
-Let somebody else save her. I don't care anymore.
-No, Elizabeth. Not her.
-Who? Me?! Dad, the picture...
-You killed us, Elizabeth but my baby girl is still alive. Save her. Embrace her. Don't kill her. Don't kill her.."
In My Darkest Hour
5-9-2005
In my hour of need
Ha you're not there
And though I reached out for you
Wouldn't lend a hand
Through the darkest hour
Grace did not shine on me
It feels so cold, very cold
No one cares for me
Did you ever think I get lonely
Did you ever think that I needed love
Did you ever think to stop thinking
You're the only one that I'm thinking of
You'll never know how hard I tried
To find my space and satisfy you too
Things will be better when I'm dead and gone
Don't try to understand, knowing you I'm probably wrong
But oh how I lived my life for you
Still you'd turn away
Now as I die for you
My flesh still crawls as I breathe your name
All these years I thought I was wrong
Now I know it was you
Raise your head raise your face your eyes
Tell me who you think you are, who ?
I walk, I walk alone
Into the promised land
There's a better place for me
But it's far, far away
Everlasting life for me
In a perfect world
But I gotta die first
Please God send me on my way
Time has a way of taking time
Loneliness is not only felt by fools
Alone I call to ease the pain
Yearning to be held by you, alone, so alone, I'm lost
Consumed by the pain
The pain, the pain, the pain
Won't you hold me again
You just laughed, ha, ha, bitch
My whole life is work built on the past
But the time has come when all things shall pass
This good thing passed away
Megadeth
In my hour of need
Ha you're not there
And though I reached out for you
Wouldn't lend a hand
Through the darkest hour
Grace did not shine on me
It feels so cold, very cold
No one cares for me
Did you ever think I get lonely
Did you ever think that I needed love
Did you ever think to stop thinking
You're the only one that I'm thinking of
You'll never know how hard I tried
To find my space and satisfy you too
Things will be better when I'm dead and gone
Don't try to understand, knowing you I'm probably wrong
But oh how I lived my life for you
Still you'd turn away
Now as I die for you
My flesh still crawls as I breathe your name
All these years I thought I was wrong
Now I know it was you
Raise your head raise your face your eyes
Tell me who you think you are, who ?
I walk, I walk alone
Into the promised land
There's a better place for me
But it's far, far away
Everlasting life for me
In a perfect world
But I gotta die first
Please God send me on my way
Time has a way of taking time
Loneliness is not only felt by fools
Alone I call to ease the pain
Yearning to be held by you, alone, so alone, I'm lost
Consumed by the pain
The pain, the pain, the pain
Won't you hold me again
You just laughed, ha, ha, bitch
My whole life is work built on the past
But the time has come when all things shall pass
This good thing passed away
Megadeth
Sack Of Bricks
2-9-2005
Once again me and the Wise Man are going in a journey to find (or at least try to find) some inner peace. That's right, that's right, still don't get no sleep. I guess I'll sleep when I'm dead. Hope that you all stay well 'till I come back Sunday.
The Wise Man, despite being tired, sent a message for me and for you all:
"You can not run fast with a sack of bricks on your back"
Still don't know what the fuck he's talking about..
Once again me and the Wise Man are going in a journey to find (or at least try to find) some inner peace. That's right, that's right, still don't get no sleep. I guess I'll sleep when I'm dead. Hope that you all stay well 'till I come back Sunday.
The Wise Man, despite being tired, sent a message for me and for you all:
"You can not run fast with a sack of bricks on your back"
Still don't know what the fuck he's talking about..
Space-Dye Vest
1-09-2005
Falling through pages of Martens on angels
Feeling my heart pull west
I saw the future dressed as a stranger
love in a space-dye vest
Love is an act of blood and I'm bleeding
a pool in the shape of a heart
Beauty projection in the reflection
Always the worst way to start
[Sample is Julian Sands from the film "A Room With A View".]
"But he's the sort who can't know
anyone intimately, least of all a
woman. He doesn't know what a woman
is. He wants you for a possession,
something to look at like a painting or an ivory box.
Something to own and to display. He doesn't want you to be real,
or to think or to live. He doesn't love you, but I love you.
I want you to have your own thoughts and ideas and
feelings, even when
I hold you in my arms. It's our last chance... It's our
last chance..."
Now that you're gone I'm trying to take it
Learning to swallow the rage
Found a new girl I think we can make it
as long as she stays on the page
This is not how I want it to end
And I'll never be open again
[Sample from "The Trouble With Evan", from the Canadian series "The Fifth Estate".]
"...I was gonna move out...ummm...get,
get a job, get my own place, ummm,
but... I go into the mall where I
want to work and they tell me, I'm,
I was too young..."
[Sample is Jim Hill from a news commentary about the OJ Simpson freeway chase.]
"Some people, gave advice before,
about facing the facts, about
facing reality. And this is, this
without a doubt, is his biggest
challenge ever. He's going to have to face it.
You're gonna have to try, he's gonna to have to try and,
uh, and, and, and get some help here. I mean no one can
say they know how he feels."
[Sample from the Conan O'Brien show.]
"That, so they say that, in ya know
like, Houston or something, you'd
say it's a hundred and eighty degrees,
but it's a dry heat.
In Houston they say that?
Oh, maybe not. I'm all mixed up.
Dry until they hit the swimming pool."
[Sample from "The Trouble With Evan", from the Canadian series "The Fifth Estate".]
"...I get up with the sun... Listen.
You have your own room to sleep in,
I don't care what you do. I don't
care when. That door gets locked,
that door gets locked at night by nine o'clock.
If you're not in this house by nine o'clock, then you'd
better find some
place to sleep. Because you're not going to be a bum in
this house.
Supper is ready..."
There's no one to take my blame
if they wanted to
There's nothing to keep me sane
and it's all the same to you
There's nowhere to set my aim
so I'm everywhere
Never come near me again
do you really think I need you
I'll never be open again, I could never be open again.
I'll never be open again, I could never be open again.
And I'll smile and I'll learn to pretend
And I'll never be open again
And I'll have no more dreams to defend
And I'll never be open again
Dream Theater
Falling through pages of Martens on angels
Feeling my heart pull west
I saw the future dressed as a stranger
love in a space-dye vest
Love is an act of blood and I'm bleeding
a pool in the shape of a heart
Beauty projection in the reflection
Always the worst way to start
[Sample is Julian Sands from the film "A Room With A View".]
"But he's the sort who can't know
anyone intimately, least of all a
woman. He doesn't know what a woman
is. He wants you for a possession,
something to look at like a painting or an ivory box.
Something to own and to display. He doesn't want you to be real,
or to think or to live. He doesn't love you, but I love you.
I want you to have your own thoughts and ideas and
feelings, even when
I hold you in my arms. It's our last chance... It's our
last chance..."
Now that you're gone I'm trying to take it
Learning to swallow the rage
Found a new girl I think we can make it
as long as she stays on the page
This is not how I want it to end
And I'll never be open again
[Sample from "The Trouble With Evan", from the Canadian series "The Fifth Estate".]
"...I was gonna move out...ummm...get,
get a job, get my own place, ummm,
but... I go into the mall where I
want to work and they tell me, I'm,
I was too young..."
[Sample is Jim Hill from a news commentary about the OJ Simpson freeway chase.]
"Some people, gave advice before,
about facing the facts, about
facing reality. And this is, this
without a doubt, is his biggest
challenge ever. He's going to have to face it.
You're gonna have to try, he's gonna to have to try and,
uh, and, and, and get some help here. I mean no one can
say they know how he feels."
[Sample from the Conan O'Brien show.]
"That, so they say that, in ya know
like, Houston or something, you'd
say it's a hundred and eighty degrees,
but it's a dry heat.
In Houston they say that?
Oh, maybe not. I'm all mixed up.
Dry until they hit the swimming pool."
[Sample from "The Trouble With Evan", from the Canadian series "The Fifth Estate".]
"...I get up with the sun... Listen.
You have your own room to sleep in,
I don't care what you do. I don't
care when. That door gets locked,
that door gets locked at night by nine o'clock.
If you're not in this house by nine o'clock, then you'd
better find some
place to sleep. Because you're not going to be a bum in
this house.
Supper is ready..."
There's no one to take my blame
if they wanted to
There's nothing to keep me sane
and it's all the same to you
There's nowhere to set my aim
so I'm everywhere
Never come near me again
do you really think I need you
I'll never be open again, I could never be open again.
I'll never be open again, I could never be open again.
And I'll smile and I'll learn to pretend
And I'll never be open again
And I'll have no more dreams to defend
And I'll never be open again
Dream Theater
Back... But Not For Long
31-8-2005
Hey! Me and the Wise Man are back fos just a couple of days 'till we go again on another road trip (The Nandomobile is going to make me deaf). Anyway, just got a little message from the Wise Man. He said:
"Roads and roads and roads. They'll lead you to everything you need"
Hey! Me and the Wise Man are back fos just a couple of days 'till we go again on another road trip (The Nandomobile is going to make me deaf). Anyway, just got a little message from the Wise Man. He said:
"Roads and roads and roads. They'll lead you to everything you need"
Stop!! ... For Awhile...
28-8-2005
Ladies and gits, the Wise Man and yours truly are going on a small road trip to the portuguese capital of suicide, to try and REST for awhile. It's strange to be on vacations and still getting no sleep. Oh, well...pity me. I'll be back soon and hope to find you in the usual place.
The Wise Man sends a message to you all:
"Stop when you must and travel when you need. To start again later."
PS: He's tired too...I wonder why..
Ladies and gits, the Wise Man and yours truly are going on a small road trip to the portuguese capital of suicide, to try and REST for awhile. It's strange to be on vacations and still getting no sleep. Oh, well...pity me. I'll be back soon and hope to find you in the usual place.
The Wise Man sends a message to you all:
"Stop when you must and travel when you need. To start again later."
PS: He's tired too...I wonder why..
Solitude
28-8-2005
Life we talk of death
Each breath come closer to out.
Of this I'm not afraid
Though I don't know what it's all about
I don't know!
Decisions that we make,
The chances that we take,
The blindness we can't take.
Thought I knew but now I know what it's like,
To be alone...!
I know...!
I remember here!
Thought it was a dream!
I never thought I'd come to this.
Living with the fear,
Now I know what it means
Never thought it'd, end like this!
Falling with no end...
Into what I've only done to me.
With messages to send..,
Out of what I've only done to me.
Falling with no
Calling with no
Crawling to the end.
I remember here!
Overkill
Life we talk of death
Each breath come closer to out.
Of this I'm not afraid
Though I don't know what it's all about
I don't know!
Decisions that we make,
The chances that we take,
The blindness we can't take.
Thought I knew but now I know what it's like,
To be alone...!
I know...!
I remember here!
Thought it was a dream!
I never thought I'd come to this.
Living with the fear,
Now I know what it means
Never thought it'd, end like this!
Falling with no end...
Into what I've only done to me.
With messages to send..,
Out of what I've only done to me.
Falling with no
Calling with no
Crawling to the end.
I remember here!
Overkill
Selling My Soul
27-8-2005
"I remember there was someone. Someone to love. Someone to hate. And I was somthing, something special. And proud of it for a time. Then they turned on me. He turned on me. I remember...dying. And her. Oh God, she's so beautiful. I needed. He gave. I had to. All I could think of was her. So I promised. And he accepted. All because of her. Damn his lies. He accepted the deal...on his terms. His rules. His way. And somewhere in time, he bust a gut laughing."
"I remember there was someone. Someone to love. Someone to hate. And I was somthing, something special. And proud of it for a time. Then they turned on me. He turned on me. I remember...dying. And her. Oh God, she's so beautiful. I needed. He gave. I had to. All I could think of was her. So I promised. And he accepted. All because of her. Damn his lies. He accepted the deal...on his terms. His rules. His way. And somewhere in time, he bust a gut laughing."
Open Your Eyes
26-8-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"No words can equal a demonstration. Your eyes see the truth."
The Wise Man said to me:
"No words can equal a demonstration. Your eyes see the truth."
La Herida
25-8-2005
siempre es la misma función,
el mismo espectador,
el mismo teatro,
en el que tantas veces
actuó,
perder la razón
en un juego tan real
quizás fuera un error,
cúrame esta herida,
por favor.
¿qué hay en dos amigos
cuando después de todo
parecen perdidos
y prefieren a otros?
¿qué dan lerdas manos,
ignorando lo dado,
si antaño se estrecharon,
ahora están engañados?
¿qué les hizo alejarse
de su 'orilla intranquila',
tan siquiera un instante
piensan en esos días?
siempre es la misma función,
el mismo espectador,
el mismo teatro,
en el que tantas veces
actuó,
perder la razón
en un juego tan real
quizás fuera un error,
cúrame esta herida,
por favor.
siempre he preferido
un beso prolongado,
aunque sepa que miente,
aunque sepa que es falso.
¿qué demonios ocurre
cuando miradas no se encuentran?
la pelea de gallos,
se admiten apuestas.
¿quién buscó abrigo
en algún otro lugar?
¿es posible que el frío
venga con la edad?
siempre es la misma función,
el mismo espectador,
el mismo teatro,
en el que tantas veces
actuó,
perder la razón
en un juego tan real
quizás fuera un error,
cúrame esta herida,
por favor.
por favor.
Héroes Del Silencio
siempre es la misma función,
el mismo espectador,
el mismo teatro,
en el que tantas veces
actuó,
perder la razón
en un juego tan real
quizás fuera un error,
cúrame esta herida,
por favor.
¿qué hay en dos amigos
cuando después de todo
parecen perdidos
y prefieren a otros?
¿qué dan lerdas manos,
ignorando lo dado,
si antaño se estrecharon,
ahora están engañados?
¿qué les hizo alejarse
de su 'orilla intranquila',
tan siquiera un instante
piensan en esos días?
siempre es la misma función,
el mismo espectador,
el mismo teatro,
en el que tantas veces
actuó,
perder la razón
en un juego tan real
quizás fuera un error,
cúrame esta herida,
por favor.
siempre he preferido
un beso prolongado,
aunque sepa que miente,
aunque sepa que es falso.
¿qué demonios ocurre
cuando miradas no se encuentran?
la pelea de gallos,
se admiten apuestas.
¿quién buscó abrigo
en algún otro lugar?
¿es posible que el frío
venga con la edad?
siempre es la misma función,
el mismo espectador,
el mismo teatro,
en el que tantas veces
actuó,
perder la razón
en un juego tan real
quizás fuera un error,
cúrame esta herida,
por favor.
por favor.
Héroes Del Silencio
Fatherhood
24-8-2005
"-Until then I will wait her quietly. Alone in the dark.
- Not Alone.
- Father, will you stay with me?
- Always. Even to the end of time."
"-Until then I will wait her quietly. Alone in the dark.
- Not Alone.
- Father, will you stay with me?
- Always. Even to the end of time."
When I Die
23-08-2005
"When I die, If I ever die, all I will be is foam in a wave. No. Even less than that now."
"When I die, If I ever die, all I will be is foam in a wave. No. Even less than that now."
Tears Of Time
21-8-2005
Tears of time - lost in the light
Tears of pain - found in the self
Deny your equals
Destroy the testimony of days past
The door of damnation open
Reason as goal
Destroy the beast in your thoughts
Like the dust in your hands
Like the dust in your hands - like the dust in your hands
Tears of time - lost in light
Tears of time - just an illusion
Tears of time - lost in light
Tears of time - just an illusion
Like the dust in your hands - like the dust in your hands
The call of the wind fades away in your dreams
People who once believed in you
Friends who trusted you
The source of life evaporates
Many emotions left behind
Your dust blown away by the wind
Many tears sown in your dreams
Like the dust in your hands
Tears of time - lost in light
Tears of time - just an illusion
Tears of time - lost in light
Tears of time - just an illusion
Tears of time - tears of time
Crematory
Tears of time - lost in the light
Tears of pain - found in the self
Deny your equals
Destroy the testimony of days past
The door of damnation open
Reason as goal
Destroy the beast in your thoughts
Like the dust in your hands
Like the dust in your hands - like the dust in your hands
Tears of time - lost in light
Tears of time - just an illusion
Tears of time - lost in light
Tears of time - just an illusion
Like the dust in your hands - like the dust in your hands
The call of the wind fades away in your dreams
People who once believed in you
Friends who trusted you
The source of life evaporates
Many emotions left behind
Your dust blown away by the wind
Many tears sown in your dreams
Like the dust in your hands
Tears of time - lost in light
Tears of time - just an illusion
Tears of time - lost in light
Tears of time - just an illusion
Tears of time - tears of time
Crematory
Simple
20-8-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"In the contest between simplicity and silence. Silence hasn't got a prayer"
The Wise Man said to me:
"In the contest between simplicity and silence. Silence hasn't got a prayer"
Lycanthropy
19-8-2005
"Once a man kept a wolf in his stomach and the wolf slowly ate him from the inside out. And the wolf grew. Finally the shell of the man could no longer contain the wolf."
"Once a man kept a wolf in his stomach and the wolf slowly ate him from the inside out. And the wolf grew. Finally the shell of the man could no longer contain the wolf."
Don't Run
18-8-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"When you run from your problem, you make it that much harder for good fortune to catch as well."
The Wise Man said to me:
"When you run from your problem, you make it that much harder for good fortune to catch as well."
Bleeding Me
17-8-2005
I’m diggin’ my way
I’m diggin’ my way to somethin’
I’m diggin’ my way to somethin’ better
I’m pushin’ to stay
I’m pushin’ to stay with something
I’m pushin’ to stay with something better
I’m sowing the seeds
I’m sowing the seeds I’ve taken
I’m sowing the seeds I take for granted
This thorn in my side
This thorn in my side is from the tree
This thorn in my side is from the tree I’ve planted
It tears me and I bleed
And I bleed
Caught under wheels roll
I take the leech
I’m bleeding me
Can’t stop to save my soul
I take the leash that’s leading me
I’m bleeding me
I can’t take it
Caught under wheels roll
Oh, the bleeding of me
Of me
The bleeding of me
Caught under wheels roll
I take the leech
I’m bleeding me
Can’t stop to save my soul
I take the leash that’s leading me
I’m bleeding me
I can’t take it
Caught under wheels roll
Oh, the bleeding of me
Oh, the bleeding of me
I am the beast that bleeds the feast
I am the blood
I am release
Come make me pure
Bleed me a cure
I’m caught, I’m caught, I’m caught under
Caught under wheels roll
I take that leech
I’m bleeding me
Can’t stop to save my soul
I take the leash that’s leading me
I’m bleeding me
I can’t take it
I can’t take it
I can’t take it
Oh, the bleeding of me
I’m diggin’ my way
I’m diggin’ my way to somethin’
I’m diggin’ my way to something better
I’m pushin’ to stay
I’m pushin’ to stay with somethin’
I’m pushin’ to stay with something better
With something better
Metallica
I’m diggin’ my way
I’m diggin’ my way to somethin’
I’m diggin’ my way to somethin’ better
I’m pushin’ to stay
I’m pushin’ to stay with something
I’m pushin’ to stay with something better
I’m sowing the seeds
I’m sowing the seeds I’ve taken
I’m sowing the seeds I take for granted
This thorn in my side
This thorn in my side is from the tree
This thorn in my side is from the tree I’ve planted
It tears me and I bleed
And I bleed
Caught under wheels roll
I take the leech
I’m bleeding me
Can’t stop to save my soul
I take the leash that’s leading me
I’m bleeding me
I can’t take it
Caught under wheels roll
Oh, the bleeding of me
Of me
The bleeding of me
Caught under wheels roll
I take the leech
I’m bleeding me
Can’t stop to save my soul
I take the leash that’s leading me
I’m bleeding me
I can’t take it
Caught under wheels roll
Oh, the bleeding of me
Oh, the bleeding of me
I am the beast that bleeds the feast
I am the blood
I am release
Come make me pure
Bleed me a cure
I’m caught, I’m caught, I’m caught under
Caught under wheels roll
I take that leech
I’m bleeding me
Can’t stop to save my soul
I take the leash that’s leading me
I’m bleeding me
I can’t take it
I can’t take it
I can’t take it
Oh, the bleeding of me
I’m diggin’ my way
I’m diggin’ my way to somethin’
I’m diggin’ my way to something better
I’m pushin’ to stay
I’m pushin’ to stay with somethin’
I’m pushin’ to stay with something better
With something better
Metallica
The Real King
16-8-2008
The Wise Man said to me:
"The Man who most obeys the King is the man who gets crowned".
The Wise Man said to me:
"The Man who most obeys the King is the man who gets crowned".
Why?
15-8-2008
"I don't belong. Not here, not now. I have to get back there. The bet was rigged, he made me believe...Now there's darkness in my soul. I want to die...again. But I chose to come back. Why?"
"I don't belong. Not here, not now. I have to get back there. The bet was rigged, he made me believe...Now there's darkness in my soul. I want to die...again. But I chose to come back. Why?"
Loverman
14-8-2005
There's a devil waiting outside your door
(How much longer?)
There's a devil waiting outside your door
(How much longer?)
It is bucking and braying and pawing at the floor
(How much longer?)
And he's howling with pain and crawling up the walls
(How much longer?)
There's a devil waiting outside your door
(How much longer?)
He's weak with evil and broken by the world
(How much longer?)
He's shouting your name and he's asking for more
(How much longer?)
There's a devil waiting outside your door
(How much longer?)
Loverman! Since the world began
Forever, Amen till end of time
Take off that dress
I'm coming down I'm your loverman
Cause I am what I am what I am what I am
L is for LOVE, baby
O is for ONLY you that I do
V is for loving VIRTUALLY all that you are
E is for loving almost EVERYTHING that you do
R is for RAPE me
M is for MURDER me
A is for ANSWERING all of my prayers
N is for KNOWING your loverman's going to
be the answer to all of yours
Loverman! Till the bitter end
While empires burn down
Forever and ever and ever and ever
Amen I'm your loverman
So help me, baby so help me
Cause I am what I am what I am what I am
I'll be your loverman!
There's a devil crawling along your floor
(How much longer?)
There's a devil crawling along your floor
(How much longer?)
With a trembling heart, he's coming through your door
(How much longer?)
With his straining sex in his jumping paw
(How much longer?)
There's a devil crawling along your floor
(How much longer?)
And he's old and he's stupid and
he's hungry and he's sore
And he's lame and he's blind
and he's dirty and he's poor
Give him more
There's a devil crawling along your floor
(How much longer?)
Loverman! Here I stand forever, Amen
Cause I am what I am what I am what I am
Forgive me, baby my hands are tied
And I got no choice no, I got no choice at all
I'll say it again
L is for LOVE, baby
O is for O yes I do
V is for VIRTUE, so I ain't gonna hurt you
E is for EVEN if you want me to
R is for RENDER unto me, baby
M is for that which is MINE
A is for ANY old how, darling
N is for ANY old time
I'll be your loverman! I got a masterplan
To take off your dress and be your man
Seize the throne seize the mantle
Seize the crown cause I am what I am
What I am what I am I'm your loverman!
There's a devil lying by your side
(How much longer?)
You might think he's asleep
but look at his eyes
(How much longer?)
He wants you, baby, to be his bride
(How much longer?)
There's a devil lying by your side
(How much longer?)
Loverman! Loverman!
Nick Cave
There's a devil waiting outside your door
(How much longer?)
There's a devil waiting outside your door
(How much longer?)
It is bucking and braying and pawing at the floor
(How much longer?)
And he's howling with pain and crawling up the walls
(How much longer?)
There's a devil waiting outside your door
(How much longer?)
He's weak with evil and broken by the world
(How much longer?)
He's shouting your name and he's asking for more
(How much longer?)
There's a devil waiting outside your door
(How much longer?)
Loverman! Since the world began
Forever, Amen till end of time
Take off that dress
I'm coming down I'm your loverman
Cause I am what I am what I am what I am
L is for LOVE, baby
O is for ONLY you that I do
V is for loving VIRTUALLY all that you are
E is for loving almost EVERYTHING that you do
R is for RAPE me
M is for MURDER me
A is for ANSWERING all of my prayers
N is for KNOWING your loverman's going to
be the answer to all of yours
Loverman! Till the bitter end
While empires burn down
Forever and ever and ever and ever
Amen I'm your loverman
So help me, baby so help me
Cause I am what I am what I am what I am
I'll be your loverman!
There's a devil crawling along your floor
(How much longer?)
There's a devil crawling along your floor
(How much longer?)
With a trembling heart, he's coming through your door
(How much longer?)
With his straining sex in his jumping paw
(How much longer?)
There's a devil crawling along your floor
(How much longer?)
And he's old and he's stupid and
he's hungry and he's sore
And he's lame and he's blind
and he's dirty and he's poor
Give him more
There's a devil crawling along your floor
(How much longer?)
Loverman! Here I stand forever, Amen
Cause I am what I am what I am what I am
Forgive me, baby my hands are tied
And I got no choice no, I got no choice at all
I'll say it again
L is for LOVE, baby
O is for O yes I do
V is for VIRTUE, so I ain't gonna hurt you
E is for EVEN if you want me to
R is for RENDER unto me, baby
M is for that which is MINE
A is for ANY old how, darling
N is for ANY old time
I'll be your loverman! I got a masterplan
To take off your dress and be your man
Seize the throne seize the mantle
Seize the crown cause I am what I am
What I am what I am I'm your loverman!
There's a devil lying by your side
(How much longer?)
You might think he's asleep
but look at his eyes
(How much longer?)
He wants you, baby, to be his bride
(How much longer?)
There's a devil lying by your side
(How much longer?)
Loverman! Loverman!
Nick Cave
Saturday, February 2, 2008
The Theater Of Life
13-8-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"Life is like a play. The Secret is to know your lines, respect the other players and make a great exit"
The Wise Man said to me:
"Life is like a play. The Secret is to know your lines, respect the other players and make a great exit"
Happy Birthday
13-8-2005
To the most inspiring human being of all, the one who always teached me the purity of love despite I was too blind to see. To the human being that continues to be there in the times of need, and will always be there. To the most perfect human being of them all, perfect because, she has flaws, perfect because she's human. Perfect because she knows the way without even knowing that we must get there. Perfect because she knows in her heart what we all must fight to learn.
My greatest hommage to the greatest woman in my life is to continue to be here, day after day and try to give at least on little piece of the huge amount that she gave me.
To her, I bow. Now and forever.
To the most inspiring human being of all, the one who always teached me the purity of love despite I was too blind to see. To the human being that continues to be there in the times of need, and will always be there. To the most perfect human being of them all, perfect because, she has flaws, perfect because she's human. Perfect because she knows the way without even knowing that we must get there. Perfect because she knows in her heart what we all must fight to learn.
My greatest hommage to the greatest woman in my life is to continue to be here, day after day and try to give at least on little piece of the huge amount that she gave me.
To her, I bow. Now and forever.
The Curse
12-8-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"Beauty may be a curse...but not as great a curse as stupidity"
The Wise Man said to me:
"Beauty may be a curse...but not as great a curse as stupidity"
Extinct
11-8-2005
"Too late the sons of Adam will cry: 'Where are the children of the earth? Gone. Look for, but you shal not find theem. Weep... For they are gone forever.'"
"Too late the sons of Adam will cry: 'Where are the children of the earth? Gone. Look for, but you shal not find theem. Weep... For they are gone forever.'"
Mad World
10-8-2005
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world
Tears For Fears
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world
Tears For Fears
Guarding Angel
9-8-2005
"While he stares at the light streaming from the house that was once his, Al Simmons reflects that his existence is certainly having an impact...and that most of it's negative. He'll be more careful in the future. His actions have caused his wife and friend to suffer greatly., he thinks. He'll laugh about that some other time"
Spawn
"While he stares at the light streaming from the house that was once his, Al Simmons reflects that his existence is certainly having an impact...and that most of it's negative. He'll be more careful in the future. His actions have caused his wife and friend to suffer greatly.
Spawn
History Lessons
9-8-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"History is made by the winners...and written by those with the loudest voices"
The Wise Man said to me:
"History is made by the winners...and written by those with the loudest voices"
Nobody Hears
7-8-2005
I talk through my eyes, the words pourin’ out
Nobody hears
You ask me what’s wrong, but what can I say?
Nobody hears
I try to tell you, I try to show you
How else can I tell you, how else can I show you?
I’m screaming inside, why can’t you hear?
Nobody hears
You’re looking right through me, like I’m not here
Nobody hears
When the last tear falls down
Nothing gets washed away
Another plea put to rest
As nobody hears, nobody hears
So what did I do to you?
That makes you run from me?
Now i'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don’t understand why nobody hears
You figured it, shaped it to your perfection
Nobody hears
Subtracted my feelings from the equation
Nobody hears
Is it all in my mind?
All in my mind
Then it would be easy to find
Easy to find
When the last tear falls down
Nothing gets washed away
Another plea put to rest
As nobody hears, nobody hears
So what did I do to you?
That makes you run from me
Now I’m sitting here screaming inside myself
Don’t understand why nobody hears
So if it’s all, if it’s all in my mind
Then wouldn’t it, wouldn’t it
Wouldn’t it be so easy to find?
When the last tear falls down
Nothing gets washed away
Another plea put to rest
As nobody hears, nobody hears
So what do I have to do?
To make you comfort me?
Now i'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don’t understand why nobody hears
So I’m sitting here screaming inside myself
Well I’m sitting here crying inside myself
So I’m sitting here screaming to nobody else
Don’t understand why nobody hears
And nobody hears...
nobody hears.
nobody hears!
Suicidal Tendencies
I talk through my eyes, the words pourin’ out
Nobody hears
You ask me what’s wrong, but what can I say?
Nobody hears
I try to tell you, I try to show you
How else can I tell you, how else can I show you?
I’m screaming inside, why can’t you hear?
Nobody hears
You’re looking right through me, like I’m not here
Nobody hears
When the last tear falls down
Nothing gets washed away
Another plea put to rest
As nobody hears, nobody hears
So what did I do to you?
That makes you run from me?
Now i'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don’t understand why nobody hears
You figured it, shaped it to your perfection
Nobody hears
Subtracted my feelings from the equation
Nobody hears
Is it all in my mind?
All in my mind
Then it would be easy to find
Easy to find
When the last tear falls down
Nothing gets washed away
Another plea put to rest
As nobody hears, nobody hears
So what did I do to you?
That makes you run from me
Now I’m sitting here screaming inside myself
Don’t understand why nobody hears
So if it’s all, if it’s all in my mind
Then wouldn’t it, wouldn’t it
Wouldn’t it be so easy to find?
When the last tear falls down
Nothing gets washed away
Another plea put to rest
As nobody hears, nobody hears
So what do I have to do?
To make you comfort me?
Now i'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don’t understand why nobody hears
So I’m sitting here screaming inside myself
Well I’m sitting here crying inside myself
So I’m sitting here screaming to nobody else
Don’t understand why nobody hears
And nobody hears...
nobody hears.
nobody hears!
Suicidal Tendencies
Spark
4-8-2005
"From space it seems an abstraction, a magician's trick on a darkened stage. And from this distance one might never imagine that it is alive. It first appeared in the sea almost four billion years ago. in the form of single-celled life. Inan explosion of life spanning millions of years, nature's first multi-cellular organisms a began to multiply.
And then it stopped.
440 million years agoa great mass extinction would kill off nearly every species on the planet,leaving the vast oceans decimated and empty. Slowly plants began to evolve. Then insects. Only to be wiped out in the second great mass extinction upon the earth. The cycle repeated again and again. Reptiles emerging independent of the sea, only to be killed off.
Then dinossaurs struggling to life,along with the first birds, fish and flowering plants. Their decimation: Earth's fourth and fifth great extinctions.
Only 100 000 years ago Homo Sapiens appear. Man. From cave paintings to the Bible, to Columbus and Apollo 11, we have been a tireless force upon the Earth and off,cataloguing the natural world as it unfolds to us. Rising to a world population of over five billion people, all descended from that original single cell. That first spark of life.
But for all our knowledge, what no one can say for certain is what or who ignited that original spark.
Is there a plan, a purpose, or a reason to our existence?
Will we pass, as those before us, into oblivion?
Into the sixth extinction that scientists warn is already inprogress?
Or will the mystery be revealed through a sign?
A symbol?
A revelation?
It began with a act of supreme violence. A big bang expanding ever outward. A cosmos born of matter and gas. Matter and gas. Ten billion years ago.
Whose idea was this?
Who had the audacity for such invention?
And the reason?
Were we part of that plan ten billion years ago?
Are we born only to die?
To be fruitful and multiply and replenish the Earth before giving way to our generations?
If there is a beginning must there be and end?
We burn like fires in our time, only to be extinguished. To surrender to the elements' eternal reclaim. Matter and gas.
Will this all end one day?
Life no longer passing to life?
The Earth left barren like the stars above?
Like the cosmos?
Will the hand that lit the flame let it burn down?
Let it burn out?
Could we, too, become extinct?
or if this fire of life living inside us is meant to go on, who decides?
Who tends the flames?
Can he reignite the spark even as it grows cold and weak?"
And then it stopped.
440 million years agoa great mass extinction would kill off nearly every species on the planet,leaving the vast oceans decimated and empty. Slowly plants began to evolve. Then insects. Only to be wiped out in the second great mass extinction upon the earth. The cycle repeated again and again. Reptiles emerging independent of the sea, only to be killed off.
Then dinossaurs struggling to life,along with the first birds, fish and flowering plants. Their decimation: Earth's fourth and fifth great extinctions.
Only 100 000 years ago Homo Sapiens appear. Man. From cave paintings to the Bible, to Columbus and Apollo 11, we have been a tireless force upon the Earth and off,cataloguing the natural world as it unfolds to us. Rising to a world population of over five billion people, all descended from that original single cell. That first spark of life.
But for all our knowledge, what no one can say for certain is what or who ignited that original spark.
Is there a plan, a purpose, or a reason to our existence?
Will we pass, as those before us, into oblivion?
Into the sixth extinction that scientists warn is already inprogress?
Or will the mystery be revealed through a sign?
A symbol?
A revelation?
It began with a act of supreme violence. A big bang expanding ever outward. A cosmos born of matter and gas. Matter and gas. Ten billion years ago.
Whose idea was this?
Who had the audacity for such invention?
And the reason?
Were we part of that plan ten billion years ago?
Are we born only to die?
To be fruitful and multiply and replenish the Earth before giving way to our generations?
If there is a beginning must there be and end?
We burn like fires in our time, only to be extinguished. To surrender to the elements' eternal reclaim. Matter and gas.
Will this all end one day?
Life no longer passing to life?
The Earth left barren like the stars above?
Like the cosmos?
Will the hand that lit the flame let it burn down?
Let it burn out?
Could we, too, become extinct?
or if this fire of life living inside us is meant to go on, who decides?
Who tends the flames?
Can he reignite the spark even as it grows cold and weak?"
Wicked Humans
4-8-2005
The Wise Man said:
"No one profits at the death of another (except for the mortician)"
The Wise Man said:
"No one profits at the death of another (except for the mortician)"
Cure
3-7-2005
The man takes another bullet
He keeps them all within
He must seek no matter how it hurts
So don’t fool again
He thinks the answer is cold and in his hand
He takes his medicine
The man takes another bullet
He’s been fooled again
Uncross your arms
Take and throw ’em to the cure, say...
I do believe
Uncross your arms now
Take ’em too,and say...
I do believe
Yeah, I do believe
The lies tempt her she follows
Again she lets him in
She must believe to fill the hollow
She’s been fooled again
Uncross your arms
Take and throw them to the cure, say...
I do believe
Uncross your arms now
Take ’em too,and say...
I do believe
Oh yeah, I do believe
Betting on the cure
It must get better than this
Betting on the cure
Yeah everyone’s gotta have the sickness
Cause everyone seems to need the cure
Precious cure
Betting on the cure
Cause it must get better than this
Betting on the cure
Yeah everyone’s gotta have the sickness
Cause everyone seems to need the cure
Precious cure
I do believe
Betting on the cure
It must get better than this
Need to feel secure
Yeah it’s got to get better than this, this, this
It must get better than this
Betting on the cure
Everyone’s gotta to have the sickness
Cause everyone seems to need the cure
I do believe
Metallica
The man takes another bullet
He keeps them all within
He must seek no matter how it hurts
So don’t fool again
He thinks the answer is cold and in his hand
He takes his medicine
The man takes another bullet
He’s been fooled again
Uncross your arms
Take and throw ’em to the cure, say...
I do believe
Uncross your arms now
Take ’em too,and say...
I do believe
Yeah, I do believe
The lies tempt her she follows
Again she lets him in
She must believe to fill the hollow
She’s been fooled again
Uncross your arms
Take and throw them to the cure, say...
I do believe
Uncross your arms now
Take ’em too,and say...
I do believe
Oh yeah, I do believe
Betting on the cure
It must get better than this
Betting on the cure
Yeah everyone’s gotta have the sickness
Cause everyone seems to need the cure
Precious cure
Betting on the cure
Cause it must get better than this
Betting on the cure
Yeah everyone’s gotta have the sickness
Cause everyone seems to need the cure
Precious cure
I do believe
Betting on the cure
It must get better than this
Need to feel secure
Yeah it’s got to get better than this, this, this
It must get better than this
Betting on the cure
Everyone’s gotta to have the sickness
Cause everyone seems to need the cure
I do believe
Metallica
Freedom
1-8-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"Freedom is not an individual effort. Yours comes only when you grant others theirs"
And I learned...
The Wise Man said to me:
"Freedom is not an individual effort. Yours comes only when you grant others theirs"
And I learned...
Casa
31-7-2005
Era tudo quando ela me dizia,
“Benvindo a casa”, numa voz bem calma
Acabado de entrar, pensava como reconfortava a alma
nunca tão poucas palavras tiveram tanto significado
e de repente era assim, do nada, um ser iluminado -
e tudo fazia sentido, respirar fazia sentido,
andar fazia sentido, todo o pequeno pormenor em pensamento perdido
era isto que realmente importava,
não qualquer outro tipo de gratificação
Não o quanto se ganha,
não o bem que dizem de nós não
um novo carro, não uma boa poupança,
nem sequer a família, ou a tal aliança - nada…
Apenas duas palavras, um artigo,
formavam a resposta universal
A minha pedra filosofal
Seguia para dentro do nosso pequeno universo
Um pouco disperso - pronto a ser submerso
Naquele mar de temperatura amena que a minha pequena
abria para mim sempre tranquila e serena, ena…
Tento ter a força para levar o que é meu
Sei que às vezes vai também um pouco de nós
Devo concordar que às vezes falta-nos a razão
Mas nego que há razões para nos sentirmos tão sós
Vem fazer de conta eu acredito em ti
Estar contigo é estar com o que julgas melhor
Nunca vamos ter o amor a rir para nós
Quando queremos nós ter um sorriso maior
Tento ter a força para levar o que é meu
Sei que às vezes vai também um pouco de nós
Devo concordar que às vezes falta-nos a razão
Mas nego que há razões para nos sentirmos tão sós
Vem fazer de conta eu acredito em ti
Estar contigo é estar com o que julgas melhor
Nunca vamos ter o amor a rir para nós
Quando queremos nós ter um sorriso maior
Bem-vindo a casa dizia quando saia de dentro dela
O bonito paradoxo inventado por uma dama bela
Em dias que o tempo parou, gravou dançou,
não tou capaz de ir atrás, mas vou
porque sou trapalhão, perdi a chave e já nem sei bem o caminho
nestes dias difusos em que ando sozinho e definho
à procura de uma casa nova do caixão até a cova
o percurso é duro em toda a linha, sempre à prova
o calor é um alimento que eu preciso
o amor é apenas um constante aviso
se sabes que eu não vivo dessa forma
tu sabes que eu não sinto dessa forma
Por isso escrevo na esperança que ela ouça o meu pedido
de desculpas
de Socorro
de abrigo
não consigo
ver uma razão para continuar a viver sem a felicidade do meu lar
da minha casa, doce casa, já ouviram falar?
É o refúgio de uma mulher que deus ousou criar
Com o simples e unico propósito de me abrigar
Não vejo a hora de voltar lá para dentro, faz frio cá for a
Faz tanto frio cá fora que eu já não vejo a hora…
Da Weasel
Era tudo quando ela me dizia,
“Benvindo a casa”, numa voz bem calma
Acabado de entrar, pensava como reconfortava a alma
nunca tão poucas palavras tiveram tanto significado
e de repente era assim, do nada, um ser iluminado -
e tudo fazia sentido, respirar fazia sentido,
andar fazia sentido, todo o pequeno pormenor em pensamento perdido
era isto que realmente importava,
não qualquer outro tipo de gratificação
Não o quanto se ganha,
não o bem que dizem de nós não
um novo carro, não uma boa poupança,
nem sequer a família, ou a tal aliança - nada…
Apenas duas palavras, um artigo,
formavam a resposta universal
A minha pedra filosofal
Seguia para dentro do nosso pequeno universo
Um pouco disperso - pronto a ser submerso
Naquele mar de temperatura amena que a minha pequena
abria para mim sempre tranquila e serena, ena…
Tento ter a força para levar o que é meu
Sei que às vezes vai também um pouco de nós
Devo concordar que às vezes falta-nos a razão
Mas nego que há razões para nos sentirmos tão sós
Vem fazer de conta eu acredito em ti
Estar contigo é estar com o que julgas melhor
Nunca vamos ter o amor a rir para nós
Quando queremos nós ter um sorriso maior
Tento ter a força para levar o que é meu
Sei que às vezes vai também um pouco de nós
Devo concordar que às vezes falta-nos a razão
Mas nego que há razões para nos sentirmos tão sós
Vem fazer de conta eu acredito em ti
Estar contigo é estar com o que julgas melhor
Nunca vamos ter o amor a rir para nós
Quando queremos nós ter um sorriso maior
Bem-vindo a casa dizia quando saia de dentro dela
O bonito paradoxo inventado por uma dama bela
Em dias que o tempo parou, gravou dançou,
não tou capaz de ir atrás, mas vou
porque sou trapalhão, perdi a chave e já nem sei bem o caminho
nestes dias difusos em que ando sozinho e definho
à procura de uma casa nova do caixão até a cova
o percurso é duro em toda a linha, sempre à prova
o calor é um alimento que eu preciso
o amor é apenas um constante aviso
se sabes que eu não vivo dessa forma
tu sabes que eu não sinto dessa forma
Por isso escrevo na esperança que ela ouça o meu pedido
de desculpas
de Socorro
de abrigo
não consigo
ver uma razão para continuar a viver sem a felicidade do meu lar
da minha casa, doce casa, já ouviram falar?
É o refúgio de uma mulher que deus ousou criar
Com o simples e unico propósito de me abrigar
Não vejo a hora de voltar lá para dentro, faz frio cá for a
Faz tanto frio cá fora que eu já não vejo a hora…
Da Weasel
Choices II
30-7-2005
"Every minute of every day, we choose: Who we are, who we forgive, who we defend and protect. To chose a side or to walk the line. To play the middle. To straddle the fence between what is and what should be. This was the course I chose. Trying to find the delicate balance of interests that can never exist, choosing by not choosing, defending a centre which cannot hold. So death chose for me."
"Every minute of every day, we choose: Who we are, who we forgive, who we defend and protect. To chose a side or to walk the line. To play the middle. To straddle the fence between what is and what should be. This was the course I chose. Trying to find the delicate balance of interests that can never exist, choosing by not choosing, defending a centre which cannot hold. So death chose for me."
Nuance
30-7-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"Remember that what is good to the goose may not be good for the gender"
The Wise Man said to me:
"Remember that what is good to the goose may not be good for the gender"
The Fairies
29-7-2005
"Up the airy mountain
Down the rushing glen
We daren't go a hunting
For fear of little men"
William Allingham
"Up the airy mountain
Down the rushing glen
We daren't go a hunting
For fear of little men"
William Allingham
Someone Worse...
28-07-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"No matter who you may be, there is always someone who is a little worse because he thinks he is a little better"
The Wise Man said to me:
"No matter who you may be, there is always someone who is a little worse because he thinks he is a little better"
Trust
26-7-2005
Lost in a dream
Nothing is what it seems
Searching my head
For the words that you said
Tears filled my eyes
As we said our last goodbyes
The sad scene replays
Of you walking away
My body aches from mistakes
Betrayed by lust
We lied to each other so much
That in nothing we trust
Time and again
She repeats let’s be friends
I smile and say yes
Another truth bends,
I must confess
I try to let go, but I know
We’ll never end ’til we’re dust
We lied to each other again
But I wish I could trust
My body aches from mistakes
Betrayed by lust
We lied to each other so much
That in nothing we trust
God help me please, on my knees
Betrayed by lust
We lied to each other so much
Now there’s nothing we trust
How could this be happening to me
I’m lying when I say, ’trust me’
I can’t believe this is true
Trust hurts
Why does trust equal suffering
Absolutely nothing we trust
Megadeth
Lost in a dream
Nothing is what it seems
Searching my head
For the words that you said
Tears filled my eyes
As we said our last goodbyes
The sad scene replays
Of you walking away
My body aches from mistakes
Betrayed by lust
We lied to each other so much
That in nothing we trust
Time and again
She repeats let’s be friends
I smile and say yes
Another truth bends,
I must confess
I try to let go, but I know
We’ll never end ’til we’re dust
We lied to each other again
But I wish I could trust
My body aches from mistakes
Betrayed by lust
We lied to each other so much
That in nothing we trust
God help me please, on my knees
Betrayed by lust
We lied to each other so much
Now there’s nothing we trust
How could this be happening to me
I’m lying when I say, ’trust me’
I can’t believe this is true
Trust hurts
Why does trust equal suffering
Absolutely nothing we trust
Megadeth
Choices
26-7-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"Be careful when you take one side or the other, you could wind up in the middle"
The Wise Man said to me:
"Be careful when you take one side or the other, you could wind up in the middle"
Crusade
23-7-2005
"-As long as he lives, he won't give up.
-Well, there are solutions, of course. Simple but extreme solutions. I've used these methodos. They have their place. But not here.
-You've killed men.
-You can kill a man. But you can't kill what he stands for. Not unless you first break his spirit. That's a beautiful thing to see."
"-As long as he lives, he won't give up.
-Well, there are solutions, of course. Simple but extreme solutions. I've used these methodos. They have their place. But not here.
-You've killed men.
-You can kill a man. But you can't kill what he stands for. Not unless you first break his spirit. That's a beautiful thing to see."
Almost Honest
21-7-2005
I lied just a little
When I said I need you
You stretched the truth
When you said that you knew
Just can't believe it
There's nothing to say
I was almost honest, almost
Living alone, can't stand this place
It's four in the morning and I still see your face
I was nearly pure
When I said I loved you
You were semi-sincere
You said I'd bleed for you
We were kind of candid
Now you've gone away
You were almost honest, almost
Living alone, falling from grace
I want to be alone but there's just empty space
I can't face tomorow, now you're not coming back
Walked off in the night and just left me the tracks
I question your call by the tone of your voice
I know I should hang up but I don't have a choice
It happend that night when you told me to go
Don't ask who's to blame, I don't know
Almost, almost honest
Almost, I was almost honest
Megadeth
I lied just a little
When I said I need you
You stretched the truth
When you said that you knew
Just can't believe it
There's nothing to say
I was almost honest, almost
Living alone, can't stand this place
It's four in the morning and I still see your face
I was nearly pure
When I said I loved you
You were semi-sincere
You said I'd bleed for you
We were kind of candid
Now you've gone away
You were almost honest, almost
Living alone, falling from grace
I want to be alone but there's just empty space
I can't face tomorow, now you're not coming back
Walked off in the night and just left me the tracks
I question your call by the tone of your voice
I know I should hang up but I don't have a choice
It happend that night when you told me to go
Don't ask who's to blame, I don't know
Almost, almost honest
Almost, I was almost honest
Megadeth
Faith
18-7-2005
"-You believed you were releasing her soul to heaven?
- I felt sure of it.
- But you still can´t reconcile this belief with the physical fact of her death?
- No. I thought I could, Father, but I can't.
- Do you believe there is a life after this one?
- Yes.
- Are you sure? Has It Occurred to you that, maybe, this too is part of what you were meant to understand?
- You mean accepting my loss?
- Can you accept it?
- Maybe that's what faith is..."
"-You believed you were releasing her soul to heaven?
- I felt sure of it.
- But you still can´t reconcile this belief with the physical fact of her death?
- No. I thought I could, Father, but I can't.
- Do you believe there is a life after this one?
- Yes.
- Are you sure? Has It Occurred to you that, maybe, this too is part of what you were meant to understand?
- You mean accepting my loss?
- Can you accept it?
- Maybe that's what faith is..."
Hungry?
18-7-2005
The Wise Man said:
"The Way to a man's heart is through his stomach, a route which takes you nowhere near his brain"
My Reward
17-7-2005
The Wise Man said to me
"Honesty is its own reward. Dishonesty is its own punishment"
...and I smiled...
The Wise Man said to me
"Honesty is its own reward. Dishonesty is its own punishment"
...and I smiled...
Soulitude
16-7-2005
"It begins where it ends. In nothingness. A nightmare born from deepest fears coming to me unguarded. Whispering images unlocked from time and distance. The soul unbound, touched by others but never held, on a course charted by some unseen hand. The journey ahead promising no more than my past reflected back upon me, until at last I reach the end. Facing a truth I can no longer deny. Alone, as ever."
"It begins where it ends. In nothingness. A nightmare born from deepest fears coming to me unguarded. Whispering images unlocked from time and distance. The soul unbound, touched by others but never held, on a course charted by some unseen hand. The journey ahead promising no more than my past reflected back upon me, until at last I reach the end. Facing a truth I can no longer deny. Alone, as ever."
N O T H I N G
11-7-2005
The Wise Man says
"Putting beauty before brains is the surest way to wind up with neither"
The Wise Man says
"Putting beauty before brains is the surest way to wind up with neither"
Good Guys (Don't Always) Finish Last
10-7-2005
The Wise Man says
"The world is a gamble and the only sure thing is that cheaters eventually loose"
The Wise Man says
"The world is a gamble and the only sure thing is that cheaters eventually loose"
Evil Walks Around You
9-7-2005
The Wise Man says
"When you wander near evil, security is only a function of foolishness..."
The Wise Man says
"When you wander near evil, security is only a function of foolishness..."
Family
8-7-2005
The Wise Man Says:
"When you invite relatives, they never seem to leave your home, so long as it is still standing"
The Wise Man Says:
"When you invite relatives, they never seem to leave your home, so long as it is still standing"
Fragile Dreams
6-7-2005
The Wise Man said:
"It matters not how grand your plans are when they're built on a faulty foundation"
The Wise Man said:
"It matters not how grand your plans are when they're built on a faulty foundation"
We Are Together Now As We Were Before
1-07-2005
"At times I almost dream. I too have spent a life the sage's way, and tread once more familiar paths. Perchance I perished in an arrogant self-reliance an age ago. And in that act, a prayer for one more chance went up so earnest, so instinct with better light let in by death, that life was blotted out not so completely but scattered wrecks, enough of it to remain dim memories. As now, when seems once more...the goal in sight...again."
"At times I almost dream. I too have spent a life the sage's way, and tread once more familiar paths. Perchance I perished in an arrogant self-reliance an age ago. And in that act, a prayer for one more chance went up so earnest, so instinct with better light let in by death, that life was blotted out not so completely but scattered wrecks, enough of it to remain dim memories. As now, when seems once more...the goal in sight...again."
Close
30-06-2005
The Wise Man said to me:
"Blood is thicker than water... so beware of your thick relatives"
Sometimes, the enemy is within our own house...
The Wise Man said to me:
"Blood is thicker than water... so beware of your thick relatives"
Sometimes, the enemy is within our own house...
Hook In Mouth
28-06-2005
The Wise Man says:
"The fish most likely to be caught is the one with the biggest mouth"
Karma's a bitch.
The Wise Man says:
"The fish most likely to be caught is the one with the biggest mouth"
Karma's a bitch.
Humans
25-06-2005
I had anger towards the world, so much trouble caused by some people who think that they're superior to all the rest, but how can they be superior if they can't see what's important? How can they be superior if they can't do their own job right? How can I trust in people like this?
I saw the wise man, I'm seeing him lot...and he said to me with a smile:
"Trust only incompetence. You will never be disappointed"
I had anger towards the world, so much trouble caused by some people who think that they're superior to all the rest, but how can they be superior if they can't see what's important? How can they be superior if they can't do their own job right? How can I trust in people like this?
I saw the wise man, I'm seeing him lot...and he said to me with a smile:
"Trust only incompetence. You will never be disappointed"
The Answer Lies Within
19-06-2005
Look around
Where do you belong
Don't be afraid
You're not the only one
Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by in doubt
The answer lies within
Lif is short
So learn from your mistakes
And stand behind
The choices you make
Face each day
With both eyes open wide
And try to give
Don't keep it all inside
Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by in doubt
The answer lies within
You've got the future on your side
You're gonna be fine now
I know whatever you decide
You're gonna shine
Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by in doubt
You're ready to begin
Don't let the day go by in doubt
The answer lies within
Dream Theater
Look around
Where do you belong
Don't be afraid
You're not the only one
Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by in doubt
The answer lies within
Lif is short
So learn from your mistakes
And stand behind
The choices you make
Face each day
With both eyes open wide
And try to give
Don't keep it all inside
Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by in doubt
The answer lies within
You've got the future on your side
You're gonna be fine now
I know whatever you decide
You're gonna shine
Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by in doubt
You're ready to begin
Don't let the day go by in doubt
The answer lies within
Dream Theater
Ascensão
15-06-2005
"Ela chegará brevemente ao segundo dia da sua manifestação, e ver-se-á então que o que foi aventura material, conquistas de costas, de pedras, de areias, torna-se-á uma aventura formidável, supra-religiosa, passada nessa "terra de nenhum deus" que fica entre o homem e os primeiros Deuses>"
Fernando Pessoa
"Ela chegará brevemente ao segundo dia da sua manifestação, e ver-se-á então que o que foi aventura material, conquistas de costas, de pedras, de areias, torna-se-á uma aventura formidável, supra-religiosa, passada nessa "terra de nenhum deus" que fica entre o homem e os primeiros Deuses>"
Fernando Pessoa
Apenas SÊ
12-06-2005
"Para ser grande, sê inteiro: Nada teu exagero ou exclui, vê tudo em cada coisa. Põe quanto és no mínimo que fazes. Assim em cada lago a luz toda brilha porque está viva."
Fernando Pessoa
"Para ser grande, sê inteiro: Nada teu exagero ou exclui, vê tudo em cada coisa. Põe quanto és no mínimo que fazes. Assim em cada lago a luz toda brilha porque está viva."
Fernando Pessoa
A Terceira Idade
7-06-2005
A terceira idade, a terceira era, será aquela que nos irá testar a todos. Senão mudarmos as nossas maneiras não iremos suportar os desafios que ela traz e esse poderá ser o fim de tudo o que conhecemos. Se assim for não será injustiça nenhuma, mas pelo menos tenho a convicção que podemos ser melhor do que somos. Eu, pelo menos quero ser melhor...
Quero Morrer
26-05-2005
Algumas filosofias dizem que a vida é como se fosse um estágio, ou uma escola em que aprendemos e aprendemos até evoluirmos. Não tenho a preptência de dizer que não preciso mais de evoluir, apenas que neste momento estou cansado da escola. Preciso de férias dela, transferência, qualquer coisa. Como bom escuteiro que sou não posso fugir, por isso limito-me estar à espera de uma oportunidade.
Eleanora
25-05-2005
"Sleep in peace!— for the Spirit of Love reigneth and ruleth, and, in taking to thy passionate heart her who is Ermengarde, thou art absolved, for reasons which shall be made known to thee in Heaven, of thy vows unto Eleonora."
Edgar A. Poe - Eleanora
"Sleep in peace!— for the Spirit of Love reigneth and ruleth, and, in taking to thy passionate heart her who is Ermengarde, thou art absolved, for reasons which shall be made known to thee in Heaven, of thy vows unto Eleonora."
Edgar A. Poe - Eleanora
O Tesouro
17-05-2005
Ultimamente não tenho tido muitas certezas de nada e tenho posto tudo em questão. Como se andasse por um túnel sem luz e sem orientação...e sozinho, sempre sozinho. Quando se poem em dúvidas as certezas absolutas muros caiem e mundos colidem. E apesar de pensar que que não haveria sobreviventes de tal holocausto heis com que me deparo debaixo dos escombros algo que possivelmente eu escolhi tapar. O tesouro mais puro de todos. E eu tapei esse tesouro sobre lixo e matérias impuras que sempre atormentaram a minha alma. Estas noites tenho me deparado com um mundo em ruínas e cada vez a degradar-se mais, onde o sol não brilha, onde a noite parece ser eterna. E olhei para o meu mundo e chorei. Chorei de raiva, de ódio e de tristeza. O que fazer perante tanta destruição? Não será melhor procurar outro mundo? Começar de novo, noutro local, noutra vida? Simplesmente desistir do jogo (JÁ CHEGA! TOU FARTO!!). Eu sei que não posso desistir do jogo, possivelmente noutros mundos desisti, mas não agora, não neste mundo...Então o que fazer num mundo destruído? Qual o caminho a tomar? Qual o caminho a seguir? Enquanto pensei nisto, o desespero tomava aos poucos de mim, sufocava-me a respiração, não me deixava engolir. A solidão invadiu todo o meu ser, a dizer que mais uma vez ia voltar para ela de vez e que ela me ia proteger de todos os outros que me fazem mal, que não deixaria ninguém se aproximar. O orgulho dizia-me que o mundo caiu porque erraram, porque não cumpriram o que era suposto cumprir, que o mundo caiu porque no fundo não me respeitaram. O cansaço passou por mim e deitou-se sobre as minhas costas, disse-me que eu devia andar carregado com ele, que devia sofrer com o seu peso porque ele sentia que era o que eu queria. A fome tapou-me a boca e lançou-me uma maldição: "Sentirás fome mas o teu estômago nao aceitará a tua comida porque ele quer tu sofras pelos teus crimes cometidos. Perdido eu vaguiem pelo o mundo em escombros á procura de algoque me libertasse deste mundo ou de algo que o consertasse e cada vez me senti mais só por sentir que estava sozinho nesta busca. Nos escombros do centro do mundo, eu tive a ajuda mais inesperada de todas, tive um raio de luz que me mostrou que o tesouro existe que ele é real e quando olhei para ele percebi que realmente nunca tinha visto até aquele momento. E quando vi ao meu redor reparei que não estava sozinho, reparei que tinha ajuda para reconstruir o mundo. Mas a fome, o orgulho, o cansaço e a solidão nao desapareceram, eles continuam presentes no meio dos escombros á procura de um colapso final meu para me dominarem. Agora sei que ninguém mais que não eu pode reconstruir o meu mundo, que ninguém me pode dar a paz interior que tanto procuro a não ser eu. Mas agora eu vejo o tesouro claramente, agora compreendo o seu significado, o seu valor, a sua importância e principalmente a sua pureza. Tentarei não deixar que ele se afunde em destroços e em lixo, irei sempre não o negar e esconder como aconteceu no passado. Porque mesmo sem o meu mundo, mesmo sem a pessoa que coloquei nesse mundo, irei ter sempre o meu tesouro. E esse ninguém mo pode roubar...
Ultimamente não tenho tido muitas certezas de nada e tenho posto tudo em questão. Como se andasse por um túnel sem luz e sem orientação...e sozinho, sempre sozinho. Quando se poem em dúvidas as certezas absolutas muros caiem e mundos colidem. E apesar de pensar que que não haveria sobreviventes de tal holocausto heis com que me deparo debaixo dos escombros algo que possivelmente eu escolhi tapar. O tesouro mais puro de todos. E eu tapei esse tesouro sobre lixo e matérias impuras que sempre atormentaram a minha alma. Estas noites tenho me deparado com um mundo em ruínas e cada vez a degradar-se mais, onde o sol não brilha, onde a noite parece ser eterna. E olhei para o meu mundo e chorei. Chorei de raiva, de ódio e de tristeza. O que fazer perante tanta destruição? Não será melhor procurar outro mundo? Começar de novo, noutro local, noutra vida? Simplesmente desistir do jogo (JÁ CHEGA! TOU FARTO!!). Eu sei que não posso desistir do jogo, possivelmente noutros mundos desisti, mas não agora, não neste mundo...Então o que fazer num mundo destruído? Qual o caminho a tomar? Qual o caminho a seguir? Enquanto pensei nisto, o desespero tomava aos poucos de mim, sufocava-me a respiração, não me deixava engolir. A solidão invadiu todo o meu ser, a dizer que mais uma vez ia voltar para ela de vez e que ela me ia proteger de todos os outros que me fazem mal, que não deixaria ninguém se aproximar. O orgulho dizia-me que o mundo caiu porque erraram, porque não cumpriram o que era suposto cumprir, que o mundo caiu porque no fundo não me respeitaram. O cansaço passou por mim e deitou-se sobre as minhas costas, disse-me que eu devia andar carregado com ele, que devia sofrer com o seu peso porque ele sentia que era o que eu queria. A fome tapou-me a boca e lançou-me uma maldição: "Sentirás fome mas o teu estômago nao aceitará a tua comida porque ele quer tu sofras pelos teus crimes cometidos. Perdido eu vaguiem pelo o mundo em escombros á procura de algoque me libertasse deste mundo ou de algo que o consertasse e cada vez me senti mais só por sentir que estava sozinho nesta busca. Nos escombros do centro do mundo, eu tive a ajuda mais inesperada de todas, tive um raio de luz que me mostrou que o tesouro existe que ele é real e quando olhei para ele percebi que realmente nunca tinha visto até aquele momento. E quando vi ao meu redor reparei que não estava sozinho, reparei que tinha ajuda para reconstruir o mundo. Mas a fome, o orgulho, o cansaço e a solidão nao desapareceram, eles continuam presentes no meio dos escombros á procura de um colapso final meu para me dominarem. Agora sei que ninguém mais que não eu pode reconstruir o meu mundo, que ninguém me pode dar a paz interior que tanto procuro a não ser eu. Mas agora eu vejo o tesouro claramente, agora compreendo o seu significado, o seu valor, a sua importância e principalmente a sua pureza. Tentarei não deixar que ele se afunde em destroços e em lixo, irei sempre não o negar e esconder como aconteceu no passado. Porque mesmo sem o meu mundo, mesmo sem a pessoa que coloquei nesse mundo, irei ter sempre o meu tesouro. E esse ninguém mo pode roubar...
O Eremita
16-05-2005
Hoje tive uma visão curiosa. Sempre me seduziu a ideia geral de eremita. Uma pessoa que não se adaptando á sociedade, suas regras e pessoas, opta por se isolar na natureza com seres que ele considera mais pacifícos e até mais inteligentes. Acho que toda a gente já sentiu isso, de uma maneira ou outra. Pela parte que me toca, já senti isto muitas vezes e acho que vou continuar a sentir.
Segundo Lobsang Rampa, os tradicionais eremitas tibetanos são paredados com pouco espaço para se poderem mover e onde estão isolados de qualquer luz e som. São alimentados por pessoas a quem chamam guardiões e que caso aconteça algo a essas pessoas, os eremitas morrem á fome. Caso eles fossem tirados de lá provavelmente morreriam pela sobrecarga sensorial que representa o mundo em que vivemos.
Segundo Lobsang Rampa, os tradicionais eremitas tibetanos são paredados com pouco espaço para se poderem mover e onde estão isolados de qualquer luz e som. São alimentados por pessoas a quem chamam guardiões e que caso aconteça algo a essas pessoas, os eremitas morrem á fome. Caso eles fossem tirados de lá provavelmente morreriam pela sobrecarga sensorial que representa o mundo em que vivemos.
Será a solução para evoluirmos como seres o isolamento dos outros? Eu por vezes quero acreditar que sim, que a sociedade, que as pessoas, atrapalham a minha busca por auto-conhecimento, por uma paz interior que não tenho e nunca tive. Mas ao fugir não me estarei a enganar por pensar que a culpa é delas pela minha incapacidade de me conhecer e aceitar? Talvez não precise de fugir, talvez só precise de as ignorar...e isso e faço bem. Bem de mais ás vezes.
Inércia
15-05-2005
Irrita-me a inércia inerente ao meu ser, a decadência de sentir o corpo lentamente a morrer e sem nada o fazer para o impedir. Sei que não o posso impedir mas também escusava de o apressar. Será masoquismo querer sofrer para poder gritar de raiva perante a injustiça dessa mesma dor? Ou será apenas estupidez? Provavelmente será estupidez. Que outra coisa se pode classificar uma qualidade como inércia? Arranjar mil e um projectos apenas para lhes retirar o significado sempre que algo de mau acontece. Para quê então esses projectos, quais são as suas utilidades senão servem mais para não os cumprirmos. Pode-se dizer que seja normal não ter a disposição para fazer certas coisas quando se passa por certas coisas, mas acho que é mais normal (pelo menos em mim) procurar apenas um canto para apodrecer em paz, longe de tudo e de todos. Não há objectivo de tentar fazer algo que no fundo não nos interessa, não interessa fazer algo que no fundo não tem objectivo. Para quê? Para que interessa tapar a minha dor com algo que não a vai eliminar/substituir? Para depois me tornar vazio outra vez assim que aconteça mais alguma coisa? Sempre tive a ideia que para não sofrer era preferivel não me mostrars que existia, esconder-me do mundo...talvez estivesse errado...talvez esteja errado...a dor continua cá. E se eu desparecesse? Será que a dor desaparecia? Se estivesse isolado de tudo e de todos, longe deste mundo provavelmente seria feliz, apenas eu e a minha inércia como companhia..
Irrita-me a inércia inerente ao meu ser, a decadência de sentir o corpo lentamente a morrer e sem nada o fazer para o impedir. Sei que não o posso impedir mas também escusava de o apressar. Será masoquismo querer sofrer para poder gritar de raiva perante a injustiça dessa mesma dor? Ou será apenas estupidez? Provavelmente será estupidez. Que outra coisa se pode classificar uma qualidade como inércia? Arranjar mil e um projectos apenas para lhes retirar o significado sempre que algo de mau acontece. Para quê então esses projectos, quais são as suas utilidades senão servem mais para não os cumprirmos. Pode-se dizer que seja normal não ter a disposição para fazer certas coisas quando se passa por certas coisas, mas acho que é mais normal (pelo menos em mim) procurar apenas um canto para apodrecer em paz, longe de tudo e de todos. Não há objectivo de tentar fazer algo que no fundo não nos interessa, não interessa fazer algo que no fundo não tem objectivo. Para quê? Para que interessa tapar a minha dor com algo que não a vai eliminar/substituir? Para depois me tornar vazio outra vez assim que aconteça mais alguma coisa? Sempre tive a ideia que para não sofrer era preferivel não me mostrars que existia, esconder-me do mundo...talvez estivesse errado...talvez esteja errado...a dor continua cá. E se eu desparecesse? Será que a dor desaparecia? Se estivesse isolado de tudo e de todos, longe deste mundo provavelmente seria feliz, apenas eu e a minha inércia como companhia..
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